if it doesn't work, fix it...

i love my mom. i know she loves me too. as i was growing up i don't recall very many 'knock down drag outs' with her. i know we had our share of disagreements about the usual things...boys, clothes, boys, grades, boys...you know what i mean. i hear that alot of teenage girls and their moms have those. and then when the teenage girl grows up, everything is hunky dory between mother and child. well, things between me and my my mom are not hunky dory by any means. it is really starting to bother me. alot. more than alot. i need my mom. my husband and i have been considering some life changing decisions lately and i want to bounce them off of her. share them with her.

it has been so long since we've talked that i am hesitant to call. that's sad. i guess i just want her to have that 'mommy feeling' that i need her and just call me. we used to have that. i don't know what happened to it. i have a grown daughter myself and i can't stand going too long without talking to her. hmm...i don't get it.

i have decided to start making amends on my part, though. i am going to write a note every month to let her know what's going on around here with the kids and stuff. that way, i know i have the peace of mind in knowing that i am making the effort to reconnect. maybe hearts will be softened and healed in the process and we can get our relationship back on track. i hope so. i sure need my mom lately.

no connection...really!

for those of you out there laughing at my playlist (and you know who you are!), yes! the partridge family is on there! at one time i had every intention of marrying david cassidy and living happily ever after. i was an innocent child of 13 and he was soooooooooo hot! (you know he was!) i have since moved on and just listen to random songs of his to bring back sweet momories of my childhood. i have no romantic feelings for him and had canceled my membership to the 'david cassidy fan club'. the fact that i have a daughter named cassidy has nothing to do with my past love affair with this person (imagined or otherwise!). it was sheer coincidence! i swear! really it was!

sugar coma and friends...

there is a little ice cream place downdown that is pretty popular in these parts. you can get a kid cone for $1.25 that is ginormous! in fact, i can't tell the difference between that size and the regular ones at twice the price. pretty good marketing, wouldn't you say? the place is always packed and they have a gazillion flavors to choose from (maybe not quite that many). we met up there tonight with our friends and their kids and ordered something called the 'holy cow!' it was a huge bowl of ice cream (12 scoops of 12 different flavors, thank you very much) and all the toppings...chocolate, caramel, nuts, whipped cream and cherries...maybe more, it all became a blur. i figured out why they call it the 'holy cow!' it was a fun to see everyone dive right into that beautifully disguised bowl of refined sugar and empty fat and calories. and before dinner, too.

when all was said and done and paid for, and we said our goodbyes at the door with the promise to do it again sometime, i looked back at the carnage we left behind and had a disturbing thought. i don't know if it was the sugar talking or the excitement of hanging out with other grownups (i don't get out much) or what, but i had done something in there that i would never, ever do if i was in my right mind.

i am not a double dipper. can you say gross? what we just did with that ice cream and 11 people with 11 spoons could not even compare to double dipping! i think i might just throw up. the thought of the germ warfare going on with my immune system at this very moment just about flips me out! but because i am the person that i am, i was willing to make the sacrifice. now excuse me while i slowly drift into my sugar coma.

i can feel it...

okay. i can feel it. those creative juices are starting to flow again. are you ready? i miss blogging soooooooooo much. my friend calls it therapy. i need to call my therapist, dr. blogspot, and spill. i am starting to feel better already! see you tomorrow!